"What are you doing in Ohio?" is my least-favorite question in the whole world right now. Because I simply don't know how to answer it.
I don't know how to explain why the only thing on my schedule everyday is a counseling session. Or why I'm not working anywhere. Or why I sit in Starbucks or Panera for hours on end, simply for free internet and a change of scenery. Or why I ended up in a city where I have no friends.
Actually I do know how to explain it. It's just a loaded answer. Very loaded. And not something I want to divulge just yet, even to people I know and love. Least of all to a fellow Starbucks regular or a hairdresser or a chick at the gym.
I'm not very creative, so I've yet to come up with a good "story". I don't want to fabricate anything, but I do need to think of a better way to answer the question when I'm asked. Because right now my blank stare, repeated shrugs, and "Ummm... Well... It's just... Yeah...", always leave me walking away feeling like a complete idiot.
So while this may have given you more questions than answers, please hear at least this: I'm not trying to be elusive, or coy, or confusing.
I'm just being quiet.
