I want to live worthy of my suffering.
He’s assigned me my portion, and I want to live worthy of all of it—the gifts as well as the trials.
I want to live worthy of everything He entrusts into my care. I want to carry my suffering well.
I desire to face my lows with the same depth of character as I face my highs. I aspire to walk through the valleys with as much uprightness as I walk the mountaintops. I want my seasons of want to be as fruitful as my seasons of plenty.
To live worthy of my suffering means to carry my cross with humility, dignity, courage, faith. I want to bear my suffering honorably—not resenting the refining process or scorning the fire in which my faith is tested. I only want my faith to be proven genuine and for Him to consider me faithful.
I want to show myself trustworthy.
Even with this.
Because living worthy of my suffering really means living worthy of His suffering.