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I can't seem to write blog posts anywhere but the official "Add New Post" page. (Well, I can't seem to write blog posts at all these days, but that's a whole other story...) I can't open a blank Word document and crank out a post. I can't handwrite it in my moleskine or scribble it out on a napkin. Nope. I feel like I trip over myself if I attempt writing a post anywhere but here.

"Add New Post". Maybe it's the authoritative command that makes me feel like here, in this space, I can actually add a new post.

I don't know why this page is magical, but it is. Kinda.

I discovered last night in talking with a friend, that she feels the same exact way. Who knew? I thought I was the only one with this strange mental block, and it turns out... I'm not alone.

And as trivial as this is compared to pretty much anything else in my life right now, it reminded me that anything I feel alone in... I'm probably not.

Someone else has walked a similar path. Someone else has struggled with the same thing. Someone else has been here before me.

"There's nothing new under the sun."

Solomon said that thousands of years ago, and his words ring true even today.

Even today on a day when I feel like there's no way anyone could possibly understand what's going on in my heart... what I'm facing... what I'm battling.

And while no one has had the exact same mix of circumstances as me, there is still truth in the fact that there's nothing new under the sun.

And that I'm not alone.

No matter how much I feel like I am.

Hopefully the magical "Add New Post" box will always remind me of that.