Seek trust rather than understanding. Those are the words I've been hearing for weeks now.
I can't seem to shake them. But they are definitely shaking me.
Because I want to understand.
I want to know why. I want to see what's next. I desire answers and direction and clarity. I want things to make sense.
But God keeps reminding me that it's not for me to understand. It's only for me to trust.
He is calling me to trust Him when I can trust no one else.
To trust in His trustworthiness even though it doesn't play out the way I want it to or think it should.
To trust His heart even when I can't see His hand.
To trust in His constant unchanging character even when He seems inconsistent.
It's not for me to know or to figure it all out or to see clearer. It's not for me to have answers or confidence or surety. It's not for me to understand.
It's only for me to trust.