I've seen God do some incredible things through me in my lifetime. He used a poem I wrote as a nine-year-old girl to bring my separated parents back together.
On my mission trips as a teenager, He spoke through my faltering words to lead people to salvation.
I've stepped out in faith for eleventh-hour financial provision, and had money miraculously show up at the last minute.
In my early years of living in Africa, I rubbed cataracts out of a woman's eyes.
I saw a man's leg grow out six inches as I prayed over him.
I pulled a lame man to his feet and watched him take his first steps.
I get goosebumps just thinking about the amazing things God has done. And I feel humbled that He's chosen to use me.
But it all feels like ancient history.
It's been a very long time since God's done something supernatural through me.
But I know it's not because He's changed.
I think somewhere along the line, I stopped believing Him for the miraculous.
My faith grew dim.
I got "busy".
And I stopped actively trusting.
But I want my faith back. I want to trust Him for the miraculous again.
I want to trust Him for even greater things.
And, Lord knows, I need Him to move mightily.
Not just through me, but in me.
Whether He ever does another miracle through my hands or not, I want to live with heart-risking trust that He can.